I don't know if this would be worth anybody's time or not, but I want to do it for myself, I guess I am looking for a sense of closure to provide a medium to my feelings which are pent up inside me and my heart.
Anyways I wanted to write about, the emotions and feelings that someone can make you experience and aware of, how someone can touch your life in such a profound and life altering way, and the most amazing thing is that this can be someone you have never met, never seen in person, never even talked to, but still felt like they are a part of your life, part of you, and I guess most importantly part of the picture you want your tomorrow to be.
To love someone and to know that you are being loved, is the most overpowering yet a very humbling experience at the same time. Its like the feeling of warmth of the early morning sun on a fall day, or a balmy breeze for a parched soul, like the feeling of having all your prayers answered. You feel like you can fly on the wings of the wind, distances of a thousand miles don't seem to matter, you feel like you can just stretch your hand and feel the presence of that someone, just close your eyes and there they are.
But then life steps in, you are confronted with the harsh realities of life. You start to think about the "what if's" , responsibilities, and consequences. I wish that I could make things go the way I envisioned them to be, a life spent in the company of someone, its like a knot in your throat, like something is always gnawing at your heart, like a feeling of emptiness. People say that time is the best medicine and life goes on no matter what, but you are never really able to let go off those moments, those memories, they stay with you for the rest of your life, its like a part of your being, your existence has left and all that is left is a void which no matter what you do, whoever you meet, where ever you are never will fill.
Not a day passes by without me thinking about what could have been, how things would have turned out to be, there are times when I cry, I stare in the distance as if waiting for a miracle to happen, hoping against hope, that somehow things will work out, but whatever happens, I will always love you, you will always be in my heart, in every beat of it, in every breath I take. I hope for nothing but the best for you, hope that you will find someone who can give you what I could only dream of, that you will find love and that love finds you.
Thank you for everything and thank you for being you.
Anyways I wanted to write about, the emotions and feelings that someone can make you experience and aware of, how someone can touch your life in such a profound and life altering way, and the most amazing thing is that this can be someone you have never met, never seen in person, never even talked to, but still felt like they are a part of your life, part of you, and I guess most importantly part of the picture you want your tomorrow to be.
To love someone and to know that you are being loved, is the most overpowering yet a very humbling experience at the same time. Its like the feeling of warmth of the early morning sun on a fall day, or a balmy breeze for a parched soul, like the feeling of having all your prayers answered. You feel like you can fly on the wings of the wind, distances of a thousand miles don't seem to matter, you feel like you can just stretch your hand and feel the presence of that someone, just close your eyes and there they are.
But then life steps in, you are confronted with the harsh realities of life. You start to think about the "what if's" , responsibilities, and consequences. I wish that I could make things go the way I envisioned them to be, a life spent in the company of someone, its like a knot in your throat, like something is always gnawing at your heart, like a feeling of emptiness. People say that time is the best medicine and life goes on no matter what, but you are never really able to let go off those moments, those memories, they stay with you for the rest of your life, its like a part of your being, your existence has left and all that is left is a void which no matter what you do, whoever you meet, where ever you are never will fill.
Not a day passes by without me thinking about what could have been, how things would have turned out to be, there are times when I cry, I stare in the distance as if waiting for a miracle to happen, hoping against hope, that somehow things will work out, but whatever happens, I will always love you, you will always be in my heart, in every beat of it, in every breath I take. I hope for nothing but the best for you, hope that you will find someone who can give you what I could only dream of, that you will find love and that love finds you.
Thank you for everything and thank you for being you.
